Time – the endless stream
Gravity pulling the ages down
The tickin tocks of
I
remem
Ber
Somewhat this and probably
that’s why I need to remember the
Two trees
Misnamed
Kahikatea masquerading as Tawas
I remember clearly painting this propped up
in the kitchen at our Brentwood street house – was it number 51? Trying Oils
for the very first time, that lugubriously slippery, deeply pigmented richness
that only linseed can give, Mum was there somewhere baking, encouraging. I must have been about 11 or so –
probably at Fergusson Intermediate school in Upper Hutt. We were the second
year through this brand new school named after Sir Bernard Fergusson – “another
Pom who didn’t come here” as Sir Tipene once, later, described Queen Charlotte
to me” although Bernie was GG that – as far as I can see is all he ever really
did for NZ.
Mr. Gibson was the art teacher – Mrs Tui
the music teacher, Mr. Bronze - metalwork, Mr Birch - woodwork – so there
really is plenty in a name eh?
I remember becoming someone through my art
and sport I guess I became or was certainly on the journey in becoming - me,
started to get the hang of me as distinct, apart from the hoards, unique?, well
that’s not for me to choose but one does need a peg or two for one’s hats.
Distinction, leadership, and or excelling, standing out from the poppies.
Mr. Harvey was my teacher – he made me a
prefect in the second year – and gave me a wonderful little book – I still have
it - entitled “building small sheds and garages”. Such beautifully, carefully
drawn pictures of how to build. He also told me he was a student of a little
known and now long gone country school at Hukinga – on the western tributary of
the main Akatarawa river. The Hukinga valley is a very steeply gorged and
precipitously ravined road that I traveled over so many times in my
adolescence with my later friend Roland Klocek. Roland’s father was Peter known
as “the deer hunter” – because only Peter and deer would dare to go into some of
that thick regenerating scrub between Upper Hutt and Paraparaumu. Peter was
Polish and drove the water board land rover. He arrived somewhere around the
war, I believe, with his Scottish wife. Smoked endless cigars and ate those
pine forest mushrooms called bollets – for me it was my first introduction to
something other than Kiwi – he was from somewhere else – a European, ancient,
and distinct culture..We had so many trips into the Hukinga chasing goats up
hillside, almost horizontally trunked trees with a huge mongrel dog before we
could own our own rifles. We stayed many a night in Mr. Harvey’s old school
house before some idiot burned it down.
At Intermediate I also painted a portrait
of a woman – an idealised, imaginary torso and teachers were amazed – a little
like their reactions to my ever increasing speed as a softball pitcher – I
remember scaring the living what-evers out of teachers as we kids played them –
the awesome power of a 12 year old having teachers ducking in fear of my speed
ball. The portrait hung on the wall of the school foyer for a long time. I
remember being crowned captain of the rugby and softball teams – as I was later
to be crowned at Heretaunga College although I was never an easy leader – it
has always seemed quite alien territory for me. Dad once, before I left high
school, said I was “a leader – you will always lead, it’s just who you are.”
(no pressure eh?)
The image of the two Tawas – very funny
because – of course they are actually Kahiatea – two remnant, solitary, bare trunked
soldiers after the war. The attrition of – slaughter of the bush – well not all
of it but a lot of Barton’s bush – I never knew who Barton was exactly but his name remains in this little
patch of bush between the uppers of Barton avenue (Heretaunga) and us working-class Brentwood street suburbanaries to the north. I went to primary
school in our own street – Brentwood primary school – broke my leg on my tenth
birthday, had 6 weeks in a full leg length plaster cast. Mum had to cut off the
toes of old socks and stuff the toe piece up into the plaster to hide my
exposed web toes – I was so embarrassed about showing them to my just
pre-adolescent peers. Weird
because I later broke my archillies tendon on my 40th birthday
playing squash – such are the needs to perform on one’s special day.
Mr. Gibson nurtured me – he gave me special
places to paint away from the throng of the rest of the art classes – but this
could well be late primary school I think looking at the skill levels.
The bush – god it was amazing leaving
Palmerston north where I had done a little excelling at school – in Barthedoor
– (the very game that left my leg broken on my tenth birthday at Kim
Higgenbothim’s place) – I was almost always last in, in that rugged testing and
quite brutal game – the forerunner to a small career in rugby for moi. Anyway
– I can recall quite clearly announcing to myself or someone, maybe a teacher,
that I was going to paint my first oil painting – and this was it – and now
looking at it all those many years later I can see and recall Trentham Memorial
Park - the other part of Barton’s bush reserve – mainly playing fields now but
then quite rough sheep grazing – where I taught my mother a little of how to
play golf – I think Dad couldn’t be bothered and mum was often left at home
every weekend in fact - so I started what was to be a long other career in
worrying far too much about the underdog – and mum’s being a housewife, having
so little confidence and skills really, to get out there and mix it in the
market place after we three kids had spat the nest meant she became quite depressed – as we now call it.
So I tried to help, had learned some
capacity for empathy, and as I got some of my art interest from her – I always
felt a deep connection with her- a sensitivity to the world around one. I
remember a now long lost painting of hers which was of a Tui – I am sure she
did it as a school girl, copied from the front of a cake tin or calendar – the Tui with Kowai blossom. I still have a re-worked and reworked paint by numbers
painting she did as she went over and over it – unsatisfied by the results she
tried and failed damaging the paper – god the damage those paint by numbers
books did to people. Makes me cry remembering this – I think the last ones she
did may have been when she was living those last two and a half terrible years
following her second stroke away from us all in Auckland – but trying to paint
something with her left hand – well this is my memory – perhaps the paint by
numbers series was prior to this but even if I am mixing my time episodes I
feel so strongly the pain of her later life. Dying in the washhouse after her final heart attack only a
couple or so days before their move south to Hastings to be near my older
brother Ron and his family. Tragic.
So the two Kahikatea – I was given a bit of
writing distinction when I was at primary school by a Mr. Smyth I think it was
– who liked my diary account, retelling my efforts to study the native birds of
Barton’s Bush – the Tuis, Fantails, even Kereru I think – who just loved
those swollen tawa berries. I later made Tawa drupe jam from them and have to
recommend it – absolutely unique yet so well known in the jam memory
banks.
The two Kahikatea standing there having
lost their protective skirt of bush around them – come Wahine day some few
years later I recall waking the next day to not only the scale of the tragedy
of the 52 deaths in Wellington harbour but also the Kahikatea having lost their
provident top foliage – as they were completely un-natural lollipops of trees
without their protection – the vast scale of the winds snapped our or my
wondrous trees like twigs. Gone –
forever after so many years and so much living.
During that extraordinary storm and as a
prefect I was asked to go into classrooms upstairs where the roofs had been
opened like tin cans – water streaming in and down the stairs – and all this
without any high-viz gear, without teachers just a 12 year old kid in dread fear
checking if all the classes were empty of kids. Then being sent home – walking
about three miles? Straight into the throat of the southerly back to Brentwood
street – corrugated iron flying toward us, wrapping itself round lampposts en
route. Dear old Mr. Harvey trusting us to get home alive – and I am sure we all
did – and no wonder those trees had little chance – it was so seriously a fury
to behold.
But as I was a bird watcher my diary in the
pre Wahine storm days at primary school saw this little boy noting how
starlings alighted on sheep backs to pluck ticks or some-such from their wool. I
used to go into the bush all the time alone and with my note book, jot down
sightings of this and that, sketch,
and I became a great admirer of actual tawas in the bush ever since.
Tawas are the most South American swamp trees – (like Kahikatea too) their
trunks swaying and growing like elephant legs and torsos on occasions – I have
even photographed them completely green barked from a skin of almost lime green
lichen. The more common is the almost jet black bark and the dead straight new
shoots issuing from the lower parts of the trees made fantastic arrows for my
bows. I would always choose Indian to play over cowboys – we got so much more
sneaking up and camouflage than those silly white men with guns. I remember spending
days making the variant cross bows – especially one using red rubber car tyre tubes as the propellant with a tricky trigger system – it went so far and high
it got to the top of the Kahikateas.
I would also make improvised bird hides of old – I think rimu – stumps
hollowed out by years of rot… this little lad hiding under the small ferns
inside the stump looking skyward, hour after hour to the occasional native bird
scurrying through the tawa canopy – wonderful memories.
Chris Trotter lived over the other side of
the park in the snotty area of Barton Ave – neighbour to Ron Trotter – His dad
(I learned at high school when we cemented a now lifelong friendship) was a
Country Calendar TV producer – Chris and I would go for walks in the bush – I
still have photos of us – the dawn mist, taking rusty the dog for a stroll –
hard light shadows cutting the bush through the mist – wonderful. We also wrote
songs – mainly (consensually competitive) and about five years ago Chris sang
me a song I had written and then forgotten since about 1974.
Chorus (unaccompanied)
“Oh why don’t you break away
You weren’t born to obey
Come to the country
Be rained on”
What a great memory and honour.
Here’s another undated, untitled wee
watercolour painting – it issued from my attending a Saturday art class while I
was at intermediate. The art teacher’s name I forget now – but I can still see
his face clearly – he was short and balding and such a lovely man – he was very
encouraging of my painting and I can still hear him saying to me and the class
“now someone here is starting to make real paintings” when he saw this
impression of Moonshine bridge that goes over the Hutt river.
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